Superwoman No More

Someone taught me to become spontaneous because life is full of surprises. I kinda thought I was being spontaneous already. But suddenly, something happened that not even in my wildest imagination would ever crossed. 

I was not as devastated as my friends were, and I was trying to keep my cool. But now, as reality is already hitting me, I am starting to feel indifference. Starting to feel vulnerable and lost. The human nature in me is already striking. I can’t hold my emotional shield any longer. It is that moment that I can’t even ride a joke I throw to myself and worst thrown by my friends toward me, our friendly inside jokes. 

I know and I strongly believe that this trial shall pass and I don’t even have a single doubt on what God has in store for me. But one thing I have to surpass right now, is this emotional battle I am going through.

The Legal Wife April 28 episode

Favorite Lines sa The Legal Wife April 28 epi

Monica to Nicole:

Huwag mo akong ma bes bes. Masarap ba ang asawa ko? Paano mo sya nilandi? Ano unang tinanggal mo? Iyong bra mo? 'Yong panty mo? O 'yong kunsensya mo?

Mang Dante to Nicole:

Mang Dante: Paano mo nagawa iyon Nicole? Paano?

Nicole: Siyempre anak mo ko. Eh di nagmana ako sa inyo.

Jasper to Adrian:

“Adrian minahal ka ni Monica. Tiniis niyang mahiwalay sa amin para lang sa’yo. Tiniis niyang itakwil sya ni Papa dahil lang sa’yo. Sana ‘yon man lang naisip mo bago mo kinaliwa ang kapatid ko!!!”

Mama ni Adrian:

Totoo ba iyon? Adrian? Totoo ba iyong narinig ko?

 (Tumango si Adrian sabay hinagisan ni Granny ng bayong sa mukha )

At ang highlight si Inday (katulong nila Mang Dante):

"Tama na po Ma'am. Tama na Ma’am"

Galing ni inday. Palakpakan

The Legal Wife –No Judgment

The Legal Wife –No Judgment

Aminado ako na dati sobrang galit talaga ako sa lahat ng kabit lalo na sa tuwing nakakakita ako ng batang umiiyak at naiipit sa sitwasyon. Pero ramdam kong gumamit si Lord ng paraan para makita ko ang kabilang side ng pagkakaroon ng extra marital affairs. Minsan nang may nagsabi na hindi mo maiintindihan ang isang bagay hanggang hindi mo nararanasan ito. Hindi ko kinailangang mapunta sa sitwasyon na iyon bagkus binigyan Niya ako ng mga kaibigan na nandoon sa sitwasyon na iyon para makita ang kabilang mukha nito at mabura ang pagiging mapanghusga ko.

Hindi lahat ng kabit ay pera lang ang habol. At lalong hindi din tawag lang ng laman. Maraming mga dahilan kung bakit madami  ang nahuhulog sa ganitong sitwasyon. Kagaya na lamang ni Nicole (Maja Salvador) sa The Legal Wife. Nang naramdaman niyang unti-unti na syang nahuhulog kay Adrian (Jericho Gonzales), nag-effort sya talagang umiwas at pigilan ang kanyang nararamdaman sapagkat alam niyang ito ay mali, masalimuot at masasaktan sya at lalo ang kanyang bestfriend na si Monica (Angel Locsin). Pero may mga bagay talaga na kahit ano man ang gawin mong pagpipigil ay sadyang mahirap gawin. Tukso ika nga. Ganoon din naman ang ginawa ni Adrian.

Isa lamang ito sa mga instances kung bakit natutukso ang iba. Mayroon namang iba na sinasaktan ng kanilang asawa or hindi kaya pinakasal lang dahil sa ginusto ng mga magulang. Nagsasama sa kasal na wala namang pagmamahal. Sa ganitong pagkakataon, hindi mo masisisi ang asawa na maghanap ng iba.

Ayun sa turo ng ating Simbahan at sa batas ng ating lipunan, ang pangangalunya ay mali, kahit ano pa man ang dahilan. Pero sino nga ba tayo para humusga? Lahat tayo may kanya-kanyang kwento. Wala ni isa sa atin ang pwedeng humusga sapagkat hindi natin lubos na alam ang bawat pinagdadaanan ng bawat isa. Hindi ko pinopromote ang pagkakaroon ng extra marital affairs. Ang point ko lang, huwag tayong manghusga sapagkat ni  isa sa atin ay wala naming karapatang gumawa nun. Hindi tayo Diyos para humatol sa kahit sino man sa atin.

Nagpost ako kahapon tungkol sa isang scene sa The Legal Wife. 

Nicole: Wala namang babaeng ginustong maging kabit. Pero nangyari. Naging Kabit ako

Matet (ndi ko alam name nia sorry): Hindi kita maintindihan. Pero hindi kita huhusgahan dahil kaibigan mo ako.

#relatemuch

At alam kong mayroong nasaktan at as usual inakusahan akong insensitive at nagpapakarighteous. I beg to disagree. Unang una insensitive ang tawag sa pagpost ng isang bagay na ndi mo sadyang makasakit. Alam ko naman na may masasagasaan ako lalo na sa mga kakilala ko dito sa Bahrain pero hindi ko pwedeng limitahan na lamang ang aking sasabihin ayun lang sa mga tao dito. At lalong hindi din ako nagpapakarighteous kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na kapag ako naman ang napunta sa ganyang sitwasyon ay hindi ko maipapangako na hindi din mahuhulog ang loob ko. Hindi ko maipapangako na balang araw, paggising ko na lang sa umaga, malalaman ko na lang na naging kabit na din ako. Tao lang din ako katulad nyo.

Pero bilang kaibigan, hindi ko pagbabawalan ang sarili ko na magbigay ng babala sa iba ko pang kaibigan na huwag pumasok sa ganoong sitwasyon. Hindi dahil sa ito ay mali ayun sa mata ng tao, pero dahil ang pagiging kabit ay masalimuot na sitwasyon. Regardless sa naging dahilan, pareho pa rin ang pagdadaanan. Hindi mo pwedeng ipagsigawan o ipaglaban ang taong mahal mo. Hindi pwedeng maging sa iyo ng buo ang isang bagay na mayroon kang kahati. Na kahit ano pa man ang gawin mo, huhusgahan ka pa din ng ating mapanuring lipunan. At higit sa lahat, marami ang masasaktan: ikaw, siya, ang mga pamilya ninyo at ang mga taong nagmamahal sa inyo. Walang sino mang matinong kaibigan na gugustuhin na makita ang mga taong mahalaga sa iyo na nahihirapan. Kaya kahit na may magalit sa akin at mang-akusa, ayos lang. Importante sa akin ang mga taong mahal ko. At pati ang mga kaibigan ko na sa paningin ng iba ay madumi, hanggang ngayon pinapahalagahan ko pa din sila. Kung nasasaktan ko man sila, iyon ay dahil mahal ko sila. Mas mag-alala ka kung wala ng may pakialam sa iyo. 

Happy Birthday Songbird

Your voice captured my soul and your humble beginnings and lovable personality made me love you even more. No matter how many stars will be born, your Star will always shine the brightest among them all. Thank you for being one of my greatest inspirations for the past 20 years of my life. Happy Birthday Ate Regine Velasquez-Alcasid. 

Happy Birthday Songbird. 

Happy SOP to you mwaaah

Shattered anGEL

Couple of weeks back, I broke down.

At first, I was not sure yet what was the reason for the pain and profound sadness I felt. Surely, the happiness I experienced when I went to India for vacation was immeasurable. But shortly after coming back, I started to feel strange. Aside from missing my TwinSis in India, there was a strange loneliness creeping inside me. Sooner, I discovered that the initial people I mingled with after coming back here were experiencing some turmoil in their lives. I didn’t know how did that happen, but subconsciously I absorbed those negative vibes. To top it all, I am too emotionally shattered as well from some recent discoveries I found. I was too vulnerable upon knowing that most of the people so dear to me were falling into a trap of sin that’s so hard to reverse. I was having a hard time trying to comprehend the situation and why did God surround me with people committing the sin I hated the most?

For a time, I was acting indifferently. I was putting much effort trying to be jolly when I’m with my friends when in fact, I’m naturally bubbly and worst, noisy when I’m with them. I felt so tired just trying to be me.

And then one fine Friday, I found myself lost in the middle of worship. I cried myself out. It was such a humbling experience acknowledging before God that I am so broken, along with the people so dear to me. He was speaking into me. Reminding me of His Presence, of His Faithfulness and His unconditional Love. He may use me as instrument and catalyst for change but I don’t have to carry the burden alone, because He is always there carrying the yoke with me even when I didn't ask Him to. Due to my frustrations on helping my friends out, I forgot that He is the only One who can heal us all.

Now I am back on track. I am and will always be a working progress though, but I’m glad to pick up the broken pieces with my hands protected with God’s love. And as for my friends, they too are children of God and I strongly believe that He will be at the crossroads waiting for them even though He is always there walking with us along the way.

Missing the Giant

It’s been a month now since I left India

but it feels like a year already L

But with the help of these photos,

I can still feel the overflowing happiness I felt while I was there.

By this time, the whole world knows how special my TwinSis is for me. 

Growing up with just one older brother, I always wanted to have a sister, regardless of older or younger than me.

Dreaming of having someone to share your clothes with, your giggles about your secret crushes and all those girly stuffs that sisters do.

And then Tara came. And she came in a highly valuable package. 

Aside from being an outstanding Singer and respected Leader and lead Worshipper, she is someone you would love to talk to 24/7 ‘coz of her vast interest about life. 

She may look tough from the outside but she has this warm and soft side but definitely not the non-sense and highly emotional type like most of the girls are hehehe

Both camera freak by nature, defying the scourging heat of the sun. 

@Neyyar Wildlife Safari - The Lion Park
I'm usually scared to travel by boat or the likes, but had to brave myself unless I want to stay with the lions for the rest of my life

I can't remember why we hugged but I'm assuming it was the time that 
Tojo, her husband, sent a message that 
the lions haven't tasted Filipino meat yet hehehe

One of my favourite spots. 
Wish I can spend an hour just sitting on the cliff, appreciating the vast mountainous greenery and being in awe of God's creations.

That's how dead-tired we were after climbing Halfway back to the top

Random stop in one of Vagamon's tea plantations

She hated me for calling her favourite romantic spot as very Twilight-ish. 

One of my favourite photos of ours.
Unedited and unfiltered yet very Vibrant and Happy ♥

Our first shot during the road trip

♥ the dry leaves on the side of the road with 2 monkeys in the middle

Guess I should make a separate blog for all the photos I  was climbing or standing on top of something with a hashtag #monkey :p

Hmmm so sitting will do the trick to look equally tall ha...
next time Gel next time *evillaugh

For a time, I felt so insecure and unworthy to be considered as her friend because most of her friends are talented 
and successful in their respective careers. 
But she never made me feel inferior.
She treated me special instead ♥.

It's the point were they're showing the exact distance difference of different places such as London, New York, etc.

Our photographer actually took a lot of shots of this photo because she can't smile like the usually 'coz she was too hungry already :p

Both our favourite picture. Very candid.
Hmmm I think I know why she was laughing like that.
Hint: closeup

She made sure we have pictures with almost everything that Kerala has, including this Banana plantation ;)

From that day onward, I am very much addicted to Grape juice.

With our newly bought sandals :)

We were the only one who took photo beside this tree.
Well that's us. Out of the norms :p

Can't recall on how many rocks did we pass just to get on top of that big rock  that gave a nicer view of the falls

The area were we were standing is usually full of water during Monsoon

Mallu-Pino
(Malayalee and Filipino)

One thing we are good at. Stepping on slippery rocks without slipping. #ProudMonkeys :p

This photo is memorable because of the now cannot-be-seen nappy :p

See... one leg standing the middle of ragging water :p

Monkeys on the loose ;)

Still the fugitive monkeys climbing everywhere

And yeah, TwinSis is actually Vain and OC when it comes to pictures 

Standing on the wrong side tsk tsk tsk
Meet Tara the Giant and Dwarfish Gel :(

Exhausted and tired yet still flashing a smile for picture :p

Needed to put my sunnies 'coz I'm too afraid my eyeliners were going to smudge. Too brilliant to put liners even when going to water

'Coz we are the Selfie Queen and Princess, hence the need to have  a selfie while riding a rick.
By the way, I am the Princess :p

On my way to the airport.
Our last but definitely not the last photo together.

Our friends are surely fed-up with these pictures of ours because we have posted these on Facebook but I just decided to put a blog about her and the fun we had during my stay in her country so that few years from now, I have something to remind me on how happy I was during those days.

Esp. on the following:

*The first dish she cooked in her new house – Egg Omelet

*The drinks, sugarcane juice, grape juice, orange juice, lime juice, the “K”, 

the hot green tea she made for me when I was sick

*Her childhood fave yummy crème doughnut

*Walking on heels from church to saloon for eyebrow threading

*Me complaining on removing footwears on most establishments 

*“Pink” guys in Lulu :p

*Cam whoring in the hotel room  *The massage *star gazing

*Checking one scary  lodge room

*The walk in the rain just to buy scrub :p

*The everyday 1km walk from house to highway

*Tamannah singing ABC song for Jesus :)

*Lil T crying out loud 'coz I locked her mum outside the room

*The hotel boy coming back and forth just to check on us giving lame excuses  *My gps memory skill :p

 *Hindi movie (Highway) without English subtitle

*The well-traveled Red umbrella  *The Festival and the CAR :p

*The dawn conversation on 07th March 2014

*Yummy mussels  *Big waves in Trivandum 

*Grandma's funeral and ceremonials *The cry :(

*Waking her up that took like forever

*Standing in long queue in Lulu grocery counter and the late realization that we forgot to scale the fruits and veggies just right before we're already next in line

*The Lost and Found baggage claim stub

*Going down the car park even without a car :p

*Mistaken as North Indian, Nepali, and the best "Korean"

*Elephant ride  *Evening walk to buy grilled chicken

*Breakfast at 2pm and dinner at 10pm

*Sexy Maids ;) *The never been found hook for earrings organizer

*Her "politician" dream :p *Sleeping in the car
*The Laundry *The non -stop "dish washer"
*Banana Fry *Fort Kochi bus not stopping at the Hub
*Multiple bus exchange going to church
*Malayalee talking to us in English because they thought
 both of us were foreigners

Newbie Mowdel :p

There is always a first time for everything. 

And I’m glad to work with these creative people 

@ahlamartist for my make-up and photographer @t_gphotography

TwinSis - MalluPino

Happiness is sharing the colorful world with equally vibrant and flamboyant Twin.

I look to you

I look to you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=az2En82skmo

I’ve been listening to this song since morning. Such an empowering song. A good reminder than whenever we feel that all our strength is gone, that no matter how much you still wanna try to give your share to whatever you are pushing through, you are just right there, fed-up, tired, drained and broken, all you need to do is LOOK for HIM. And just as the song goes “In YOU I can be strong”.

The Beauty of Kerala

Seeing and experiencing the beauty of Kerala was such a blissful and wonderful treat. It is indeed God’s own country. A beautiful state beyond word can describe. The greeneries, high mountains, back waters, vast tea plantation, wildlife sanctuaries, tall pine and rubber trees will make one tourist like me in awe to God’s creativity. I'll be forever grateful to Him for giving me this opportunity.

Neyyar Wildlife Sanctuary, Thiruvananthapuram

A repository of some of the rarest medicinal herbs, the Neyyar Dam located about 32 km from Thiruvananthapuram, is a popular picnic spot with a lake and a picturesque dam site. The lake formed by the dam across the Neyyar River is the bluest of blue, making boating irresistible for tourists.

The Neyyar Wildlife Sanctuary of which the dam is a part is the habitat of over a hundred species of fauna including Asian Elephant, Tiger, Leopard, Slender Loris and reptiles like King Cobra, Travancore Tortoise, etc. A crocodile breeding centre and a lion safari park are also located in the dam site.

(Caption Credit to: https://www.keralatourism.org/destination/neyyar-reservoir-thiruvananthapuram/240)

A scenic view on top of Neyyar Dam

Vazhachal & Athirapilly Waterfalls

The most famous waterfalls of Kerala, Athirapally and Vazhachal. It is also considered as the Niagara Falls of India. The picturesque spot, which is also adjacent to dense green virgin forest, plus the soothing sounds of cascading waterfalls will surely bring you tranquility that only nature can give.

Vagamon Pine Forrest

One of the most romantic places I’ve ever seen. It has a very Twilight-ish effect ♥. 

Couldn't resist but imagine being with someone you love enjoying the beautiful and serene environment. Plus the rainy-effect sound when the wind is playing with these towering Pine trees will make your mind at peace.

Shining rays of the sun passing through the canopy is simply irresistible.

Vagamon Tea Plantation

The vast tea plantation of Vagamon will surely bring you tranquility with it’s lush greenery and fresh air.

Random stop in one of the greenery hills in Vagamon

TAGORE ROCK, PARUNTHUMPARA

Parunthumpara is considered as one of trekker enthusiast’s delight. A beautiful mountainous place located near to Peermade in Idukki District of Kerala. Despite having a fear of heights, I couldn’t resist but braved myself in climbing Tagore Rock, one of tourist’s favourite spot in Idukki district. From the top, you will get an endless view of vast green forest that will make you shout like Jack and Rose did in Titanic “I am the Queen of the world!” :p

(Photo insert from http://www.panoramio.com/photo/81579645)

Beautiful sun rays passing through the clouds giving as an impression that God was shining upon us and He will forever will.

 The Beauty of Neyyar Wildlife Sanctuary, Thiruvananthapuram

The Lion Safari Park inside Neyyar Wildlife Sanctuary

“The truth is like a lion; you don’t have to defend it. Let it loose; it will defend itself.”

― Augustine of Hippo

While seeing these lions, I’m singing “God’s not Dead” song :)

My God’s not dead

He’s surely alive

He’s living on the inside

Roaring like a Lion

Random thirsty elephant in Periyar Wildlife Sanctuary

Kodanad Elephant Sanctuary

The largest elephant training centres in Kerala. Kodanad Elephant Sanctuary is a rural riverside village in the Ernakulam district of the state of Kerala . Its a popular picnic spot and tourist destination in kerala too. It is the only elephant rescue and training center in Kerala specialized for rescuing and training stranded adult and baby elephants from the forest regions across Kerala. Kodanad Elephant Training Camp, Kerala is situated on the south bank of Periyar River, about 42 kilometers east of Kochi (Cochin) city.

(Credit to http://www.yatramantra.com/Place/kodanad-elephant-sanctuary)